Sometimes I feel like I'm falling apart
The ground is as solid as it has ever been
The Earth, ever surprising, ever changing,
Yet - ever constant.
The sky never cracks, never shatters
Yes, the sky changes, the sky shifts, the sky
Lets loose torrential rains; clouds
Blazing fire, surreal washes, or cool deep color
Pure - contorted - distraught - yet, constant
Sometimes I feel like I'm falling apart
The world around me blurs in one moment
Then sharp, acute my senses are
I am falling in chaos
Living life ruled by a schedule
Ruled by time
Who am I?
I laugh. At myself. A lot
Or for weird reasons
Or for no reason at all
Simple, hysterical, uncontrollable laughter
It's not funny
What is wrong with me?
I cry sometimes
Sometimes I feel like I am falling apart
Mostly I laugh - hollow or falsely
Sometimes I feel the fault line shift
The pressure builds up
Crack - shatter
But I hold it inside
Never show who I am...
Not even to myself.
Who am I?
I seem to have lost myself.
Distance myself from others
Show only some of my faces,
My multi-faceted personalities.
I try to get close to my friends
Let them get close to me
But even I don't know me.
Were I another person
I probably wouldn't like me
Sometimes I feel like the world is closing on me,
Crushing me - I cannot breathe,
Sometimes I feel like the world is expanding
Everyone is distanced
I find myself lost, in a haze
I don't know me.
Do you know?
Who I am? What I am?
Who am I? Where do I belong?
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